It has been far too long since I have updated this blog.
There is so much I have been thinking on and so much I want to share.
I have been spending a lot of time contemplating the end of the world.
I know this makes me sound crazy.
I assure you I am not.
We survived all the “world endings” of 2012 and are now well into 2013.
© 2013 Shellativity
Do we have a soul? Or are we simply complex electrical signals within our brains. “The Soul” is the core of our beings. If this is true how do we explain dementia or any other mental disease. Why do these alter the personality so severely. Surely the soul would be unwavering. Perhaps the soul is just locked away in these situations but still exists. I guess it isn’t really a question that can be answered, but then aren’t most things. When falling asleep sometimes I sleep so soundly it’s as if I’m not even there, as if my brain is so at rest that I cease to be. I find these thoughts slightly scary and dislike dwelling on them. However, what does that mean? Sometimes I feel we are just electrical impulses in the brain moulded and shaped by our experiences. If we are energy then surely that energy will always exist, unless it dissipates.
Ahhh pulsars arent they amazing looking. Is it just me or do they look like windmills in space. Perhaps they are power generators for our universe.
I don’t recall ever seeing in the Bible that God is a magician. I do not believe in magic.
As I sit here thinking about this I think of Jesus turning water into wine. I am sure if I travelled back in time with a microwave and made popcorn this would seem magical too. Why then do people seem to assume that God is some sort of a magician.
Is it not more likely that God is simply a more advanced species Much more scientifically advanced way beyond what we can comprehend. Surely if the Red Sea needed to be parted he would have to do something to make it happen. Whether it be a strong gust of wind or a tsunami etc. Perhaps he shot a beam from space which caused an avalanche which caused the tsunami. Humans have dabbled in making such devices. It seems reasonable to me that one so much more advanced could do this.
I hear you now “Shelley surely you don’t think God is an alien” if God created the Earth then surely he is not from Earth.
I’m getting off track, I do that lots
What I am saying is to perform things that seem miraculous to us would in fact take the use of Science. That the two can and do cohesively fit together. Proving something has a scientific explanation does not disprove the existence of God. In fact in my opinion it proves the existence. The universe works far too well. There are far too many happy coincidences for it all to just be an accident.
© 2011 Shellativity
I feel like I started this in the middle. I have previously mentioned by Religion/Science cohesive view on God. Let me elaborate.
Ignorance and arrogance are rampant in both science and religion. They are essentially the same thing but they believe themselves to be opposite. Both seem to view that one can not exist with the other. Actually that may be a slightly harsh view of religion. I believe Scientists to be much more ignorant. Religion at least believes in blind faith so they don’t care about the how’s and why’s.
This by the way is what I usually think about everyday for a majority of the day. I am obsessed with God, as I have said before not so much religion but what God is.
I once watched a show where they explained how the parting of the sea by Moses could actually be explained by Science. There are a few theories for how this could have happened but the one that caught my eye was an avalanche causing a tsunami which meant there was a huge pull back of water which would have lasted several minutes I think they said 15 (but don’t quote me on this) Now the scientist explaining this made it sound like this disproved the existence of God. Why? Are we saying that like life itself this was just a happy accident. That at that very moment Moses just happened to need to cross and just happened command the water to part there was a natural event which caused this. I will say that this theory certainly disproves the existence of the magical mystical God.
© 2011 Shellativity
Lately I’ve been thinking, well I’m always thinking , but lately it’s about something different. I think about God all the time. Not the same way others do I think about God as a life form. What God is where he came from etc. I believe in God as far as I’m concerned it’s a given. The only thing that makes logical sense. I believe Science and religion can coexist together, but I think I like the more ignorant view of God better. The magical mystical God. I don’t believe God is a magician I just believe he is a superior being that has the ability to control more things than we can comprehend.
Does this then call souls and heaven in to question. This is where I am stuck. I am having a crisis of faith/belief. I have always believed in a soul and that when we die the energy is released and goes somewhere. I find it difficult to imagine that what makes us us is just chemical and electrical signals in our brain. If only we could test with a brain transplant, but maybe the soul lives in the brain. Weird how it always feels like it’s in our chest.
I always believed we stay intact our thoughts our presence but lately I’ve been wondering if when we die disorganized energy is released that just expands through the universe like a dying star as it were. I like the on clouds watching over our loved ones theory much better.
This past year I have had 2 deaths in the family. This has probably been the cause of my obsessively thinking about death and life after death. They were 2 very different deaths.
The first was my Nan (my mothers mother). She had a blood clot and became disorientated and lost consciousness at home was taken to the hospital where we were told by the Dr. That she was going to die. Everyone was there and was able to hold her hand and say goodbye. I was there when she took her last breaths. It was weirdly beautiful like birth in reverse. She seemed at peace and ready. When she was gone her body did seem nothing more than an empty shell. A few years ago I had to put my very old dog to sleep it is strange how similar her death was to my Nan’s.
I didn’t feel anything after no presence or anything. I guess I thought maybe you’d feel something notice something but she was just gone. I assumed maybe as this was my Nan that her presence wouldn’t be bothering with me or I wasn’t tapped in enough to her. I realize how stupid this sounds.
The second death was my father this was nothing like my Nan’s death. There was nothing beautiful about it. It was ugly and harsh. He died at home of a heart attack. Alone with his 2 and 3 year old daughters. It is believed he died around 8 pm as he had the children’s dinner out of the oven but hadn’t dished it up. I assume he went to the living room to get them and collapsed. He wasn’t found until the next day at 11am. The children were alone with him all night. It was the worst possible way he could have died. The way he wouldn’t have wanted to die. I didn’t see the body and I am glad of this. I had the opportunity but I kept remembering how my Nan looked how empty she looked and didn’t want to see him like that. We had a strange family dynamic my dad was very private we didn’t see each other often, but I loved him immensely as I know he loved me.
Again I felt nothing. Shouldn’t I be able to feel him a presence or something. Though saying that right after he died both my youngest brother and I were scared to be alone. Like we felt he would pop up and speak to us from beyond. I guess you don’t need to feel a presence or that you are being watched over. Maybe it is just something people con themselves into feeling and it is just psychosomatic.
This is how I got to here constantly wondering if we are just electricity and chemicals or a soul that leaves our body and travels elsewhere.
You see I am firm in my belief in God but as previously stated I have a somewhat cohesive view of religion and science. Therefore, it begs the question of what is a soul. It’s all I can think about.